I’ve finally finished my digital story. I’m not finishing this up at 4am the day it’s due because of lack of commitment, but for a couple of reasons — one being that I simply create terrible work if I ever start ‘early’ and the second being that it took a long time to figure out what I was going to say (literally, speak) in this video.
I guess everyone has their own creative process, and I’m curious to know how others went about this.. For me, as usual, words fail to express the entirety of my thoughts. So I started with images. Quite honestly, I could not form words to match my emotions until tonight. Even now, I’m trying not to over think what words I have chosen. I just jotted them in my journal, free-style. My little brother composed this song.
A dear friend of mine recently told me that his friend committed suicide. I haven’t been able to say anything comforting, as far as I can tell. I know that listening is important, but I guess I wanted to be able to offer some words of wisdom that I felt he might have been seeking from me. This has bothered me all week.
I changed the topic and mood of the digital story project from my original idea.. I felt like I could use this as a chance to express my emotions about the whole situation, even if it didn’t necessarily help my friend. I suddenly found that I needed to wrestle with the acceptance of the fragility of life.
This video is dedicated to a boy I’ve never met. I’ll never know why he chose to end his life. I hope that he can start again, wherever that may be, in a better space than he found in this life.
